G D A Em

okay the day ended better then it started. that heaven or i woulda cried.
i jammed with brendan today
we wrote a song
okay nevermind
we didn't
hahahahahaha well it kinda is...... kinda
anyways. i need to think of lyrics so that next time we jam, with tyler there, we can actually make a song! yay yay hurray. <--boredom
anyways. i love you,
goodnighty

please shut up. please

i'm so stressed. i'm about to give up.
i'm so busy that i can not eat for 2 days and i don't even realize till someone tells me or i'm sick.
i can't take it.
high school, friends, family.
it just builds up until it comes crashing down on me.
ohh.
and im sick.
whhooopdiiidooo
:'[

all the things and cause brain-splosion

number 1: possible mono. that causes lots of splosion. i mean come on. already!?!?  sigh. this sucks.
number 2: no snow boots.
number 3: when you buy a bunch of songs on itunes then they all disappear and you never see them again! i hate PC
number 4: when your internet crashes 5 billion freaking times.
number 5: your your effed up computer will turn off if you freaking move it.
number 6: when your fat cat sheds all over your clean clothes cuz cats are dumb like that.
number 7: winter
                                              ...the end...

poker.1408.jamocha.you.

today was extremely great fun:P i had a way good time with Tyler, Spencer, Landon, Riley, Chance and Luke :]
it was an adventure. and a very good one.^.^  went to get jamocha shakes with ty spencer and riley and made all the guys listen to my music. i'm so demanding like that, its great :}
and its official. the people at reams love us :] we are so hilarious and... yah. it's really great. i think that i most likely should be happy way more often.
holy cow
where did that come from? i'm tired okey? it's not my fault, really.:P   ";} <-- face?
aneewas
i cleaned my longnoard and ohh my heck. its great. the wheels are wonderful anad preeettty
i used 26ish Q-tips.
that my friends, is alot
amyways. i'm tired.
good night:]

snow day :[

well at first i was extremely excited for the snow day. first in forever. i was gonna hang out with tyler all day. and was going to be great. but then i realized my car sucks and there was zero way to get to his house. :[ the snow is way to deep and the stupid a snow plows haven't come by yet so im stuck in my house for now.
worst snow day ever.
just saying. :[

happy birthday to pheenie

well...
my party was sooo fun.
i have wonderful friends. i love them:] and they were (almost) all here at my house. it was great. we played rockband and tried to play fugitive. it was just to cold. aaaannnndddd after all they guys left the girls just listened to kesha and partied in my kitched. it was way fun. i love my friends. sometimmes. one really pissed me off today... but other then that... :]:] amazing. i got great presents. thanks guys!
its late and i feel like im repeating myself. sigh... goodnight world. :]
p.s.
i wanna hold your hand.^_^ and boy, i miss you already. lets hope we don't get sick of each other k?

pppoooeeemmm (long for poem)

im trying to put down words to describe how i feel, but no one, nothing knows the true lyrics of my heart. is it beats a song is heard. as it beats a song is created. it pierces your heart and enters your mind like a flock of doves. your eyes light up like lamps in the night, the notes run throught your ears like a herd of powerful horses. it takes you breath away like the chill of a december night and then you, and only you, know the true lyrics of my heart <3

with me, today

i saw a picture of him and my heart pounded and ached. whats wrong with me? that shouldn't happen. ever. please. please no more.

tyler and i made cookies yesterday. well i made cookies. HE kept distracting me in the cutest ways ever...but thats not the point... hehe. we still made cookies. very hard, crunchy, over cooed peices of rock, but cookies none the less:] we also did a little in my now very yellow bedroom and painted me selves. jessica came over and helped some. mostly ate cookies and talked about how she was cold, but i really enjoyed having her over. :P haha. all in all yesterday was a very grand day:]

cheating gets it faster :P

how can i express my feelings right now?
im still in great loss.
i still see you and wonder what i did wrong.
but at the same time i...
i am no longer in pain.

i figured you would always be... mine.
but one cannot hold onto things forever.
it 'hurts' to look at your picture,
yet im over you k

i am with someone else.
and i am very happy.
very.
but there is this program inside of me
and whenever i see you it gets set to 'flirt' mode.
but i honestly dont try!
you make me worry.
you make me.... ugh.

ty...is perfect.
so i guess this is goodbye.
im 'uninstalling' my flirt mode and
moooving oooooon.
and boy, it feels pretty gosh darn good. :]

blaaaaahhhhhh
this was supposed to be a poem.
fail.
yet im still like...
talking in the way that
suggests that im not over the whole
poem
idea.
hahaha
this is great i cannot
stop :]

i am all yours, would you please be all mine?

i think that i have finally realized what i have been missing out on.
Everyone told us over and over again, that we would be good together but we kinda just blew them off, brushed them away, saying 'yah, whatever. were fine being just friends' but in reality we weren't. well, we were but deciding to be more then 'just friends' was so... nice. it was what i, and i think you really wanted. and its fun. you makes me smile like the sun, and the butterflies you give me are amazing. i love it. i love holding your hand. i love leaning on yout chest and hearing your heart beat. i love looking into your eyes. i wonder why in the world we waited for so long [literally months and months] but then i think that if we didnt wait we would be so greatful for what we have. i cant wait for when what we feel for each other grows into somthing more. something grand.

...crawling from myself...

Should i beleive the words of the world?
i feel myself sinking with every step i take into societies wishes
and drowning into the wants of the world.
i feel myself fleeing from the true desires of my heart
and trying to escape the dark secrets inside of me.

If anyone could make me a better person, you could!

im not quite sure what i wanna say. but i just sat down and opened my bloggy and signed in, so... i must say something. ohh dont you hate it when you love love love a song and you dont know the words... yah. Northern Downpour. i love this song. dont know it. but i will soon, cuz im listening to it non-stop. ohh and i also dont like it when a song ment so much to you and suddenly when your singing it it gives you no special feelings. it no longer makes you want another person. it no longer makes you heart break or cause your soul sing. its just a song to you... i dont like it at all... it makes me feel sad. like and the songs and me are not friends anymore... D:

I wont let the truth go....

Your words drug me in
like a fish on the line.
i saw the warning signs
i heard the voices telling me
no.

                                         i stopped caring what they thought.

                                         no one needs to know

                                         right?

                                         its all in my head

                                         i know the things your saying dont mean anything

but who is to stop me from caring?
who is to stop me from
falling for you.
more like you tripped me...
but i dont care.ou

                                        im  still on my way down. falling

                                        down

                                        down

                                        slowly, yet quickly towards you.

i know what im thinking is bad.
that i will regret this.
regret you.
but i cannot help myself.
i cannot help but wish to
be with you.

  your pull on me

like the suns gravity  is 

pulling the earth.

closer and closer i want to get

but staying father away from you

for the sake of others.

is what im doing right? 

please tell me now.

actually i know the answer

wanting to escape like 

a thousand caged lions.

but me, myself as the tamer 

wont let them escape.     

i wont let the truth

go.

and it rotting inside of

me.