beautiful. that's what your spirit is. beautiful.

8,879 WAY TO GIVE YOURSELF AND OTHERS GOOD FORTUNE RIGHT NOW!

i am super happy.

i'm going to wake up everyday (not including mondays) and say that to myself.
i read in my karma book that if you do that your day, and who ever you talk too's day, will be much better.
sometimes i wonder why i even spent money one this book.
8,879 ways to look like an idiot.
8,879 ways to walk your dog.
8,879 ways to lick the carpet when you get mad cow disease.
... k
but really, it seemed like a good investment when i bought it, but now i look at it and think 'there is way to much happiness in this 4x4 book'

i would really read 8,879 ways to wear a buzz light-year ring.
i dont even have that many fingers.
gosh, these are more cliche than my brain.
it's gross

'expect to hear good news, everyday'
 'you dont have ti forgive people if you dont judge them in the first place'
'there is nothing to be, nothing to do, and nothing to have'
'its not what happens that matters most; it's what you do with it'

this sounds like stuff Gandhi would say
sexy,
sexy,
Gandhi.

p.s.
alot of my post about Brendan was writting by Brendan.... jsyk k?

shout out

Taylor,

i love you. you are such a sweet heart and every time i see you i get happy, even when we are both in pissy moods. your the only person that will listen to what i have to say and not talk crap about me. ever. and for that, your freaking amazing. your the only person that would do anything for me anytime. thanks.. :D

Emily, 

Hun, your amazing. Seriously the greatest thing ever. I love you so so much. your so gorgeous and your not afraid to show it.i love the side of you thats not afraid to be you. you listed to me complain all day and you give freaking amazing advise. i love your sweet spirit and your wild side. hehe

love you

Jessica, 

You are such an individual. i love that about you. your so funny and you just can't make me mad. i think your so pretty and you have a very big heart. your smile is so contagious it can make a whole room bright just by walking in. i love that we can just talk and everything i have been feeling, spills out. i like that you will tell me when i'm being a little brat. your honest with me. and for that, thanks.

Brendan Miles,

Hmmm... where do i start? your freaking great. haha i really do love ya. well i mean, i hate you, too, but... ya know. (the pregnant jokes have got to stop!) hah. no but really, your great. you have been my friend for awhile and even though i don't really confide in you, you still have been there. plus your like a freaking crazy pants and if i chill with you i know that it will most defiantly a good time. i love you dood! I'm not kidding you're freaking hot! Please marry me?

Landy,

I am not a jerk. promise. your super awesome and a funny kid. your like a little brother to me and i really love ya. i think that your super funny and i love. and i just like to beat you up. :D but i do it out of pure kindness. :)

Cody,

I miss you, Cody. 

that is all.

Sophia,
Your are CRAZY.  freaking love you so much. you seriously are the worlds funnest person. if i am sad i just go chill with you and we go on crazy adventures and it's super sexy and everything! it's amazing. like you! ;) you are so pretty and just a dollface. your not afraid to be you

Brendan, I love you

Riley, I love you almost as much as Brendan

-brendan

cliche life :)

so i have realized that not everyone can be happy, and the people that are not happy are really missing out.
take wht life gives.

go out.
spoil yourself, yet
serve others.
smile at strangers
blow kisses
eat chocolate
date people
shop with friends
dance in the rain,
or the shine.
play boardgames
explore
dream big
try knowing yu may fail.
take advice of people you hate
let down your guard.
stand up for what you believe
say CLICHE things.

i know i'm kind of a loser and i know that i'm a brat, but i can't help think wht life would be like if i took everything good. not be careless, not be negitive. it's my new, new years resolution.

dear Frani,

so, i'm sorry. i was a brat and i got yelled at enough to know it was a real crappy thing i said yesterday. to be honest i was just mad cuz it upset Taylor and i should have kept my mouth shut. it wasn't my place to say what i did, and once again i'm sorry. i just understood how she felt and... yah. personally i think you are  funny and beautiful and not at all bratty. you don't have to forgive me, not at all, but i want you to know that i'm sorry and i take it back.
-phee

Happy -NeverShoutNever! :)

You make me happy whether you know it or not
We should be happy that's what I said from the start
I am so happy knowing you are the one
That I want for the rest of my days
For the rest of my days
Yeah, all of my days

You're lookin' so cool you're lookin' so fly
I can't deny that when I'm staring
You down right dead in the eye
I wanna try to be the person you want
The person you need
It's hard to conceive
That somebody like you could be with
Someone like me

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce
Ooh Ooh
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/n/nevershoutnever/happy.html ]
You're lookin' so fresh
It's catching my eye
Why oh why did I not see this before
The girl I adore was right in front of me
And now I'll take a step back and look in your eye
And ask why it took so long to see
We're meant to be

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce

On the good, the bad, the ugly
The smiles, the laughs, the funny,
Or all the things we put each other through
It's for you for you for you

You make me happy whether you know it or not
We should be happy that's what I said from the start
I am so happy knowing you are the one
That I want for the rest of my days
For the rest of my days

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce

Ooh ooh

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) <-- look how cute they are :)

brendan wake

broke my cell phone. end of story.

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really though, i don't care much. he didn't mean it. i just have to use the blackberry. i HATE blackberrys. i'll buy myself a new phone. one i know how to text on. and this blackberry is the oldest gosh dang thing in the world. :'(
yah i dont care if i'm being a baby, cuz at least i still have a phone blah blah bahh.
I LOVED MY CRAPPY PHONE THAT BROKE ALL OF THE TIME.
haha. this parting is going to be difficult. just another bump in the road though.
haha jk
:D
it's been a great day :)

so i love Landon Aldana...

haha well he introduced me to like an awesome band. and for that, i am forever in his debt.
are
you
ready?
I FIGHT DRAGONS
they are wonderful. not just one song, but many :)
hehe.

okay so i had so much freaking fun tonight with landon and my tyler :) i totally beat landy up (no matter what tyler says, it was me) and i feel so bad. but hey, i got my phone back. the poor kid has bruises from my knees. ohh.... but i dearly love these two kids. i love them i tell you! i never knew that i would even be friends with them, and now... well we hang out like every freaking day possible. i love it so hard it now even funny.

ohh okay i'm also really excited cuz i'm chilling with tyler landon and jessica on monday and we are going to have like the biggest party time every. and hopefully it will be super cliche. i always have, i always will. hahha.is that a bad thing? cuz come people act like it is... anyways...

also i had a super fun time with emily today. :) we made mac and cheese and made fun of 7 year old and made cheese cake (from a box. shhhhhhh).  and then we like danced around her room to keshe for like an hour. it was totally freaking fun! aahhhhhhgggaahhhh. i loved it.

i want you when the sun comes up :)

okey so like... i dunno what to say anymore. Is that a bad thing for the girl who is always talking about something?

Beauty Queen of only 18. She had some trouble with herself...

...i don't mind spending everyday out on the corner in the pouring rain look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay awhile...

so i have decided something... Tyler should stop reading over my shoulder ;)

yes. Ty that means you. Turn around. For more than ten seconds. <3

okay so i have decided that it hurts to be in pain. like physical pain. i don't really know why i get like this but the pain is so bad that i can barely type. i feel bad. tyler has no idea that i get like this. my chest pain hurts so bad sometimes. sorry ty. :( 

NMYWAYS on a happy note, tylers dog is so SO SO SO SO SO cute. :) he is playing with an ice cube like a kitten. :) IT'S SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!

I counted the webs from all the spiders. killing things and eating their insides

so sometimes i want to just stay here forever and never have to leave but sometimes i just want to get out of here already. it seems like only a few people actually want me here and all the others are just saying it. that's okay. i guess that's just how it is. :\ anyways... today i hung out with Tyler, Taylor and Cody. it was really fun. we played  with my birds and then we painted hand prints all on the walls (and each other). XD it was a very good day. i ate like a whole jar of chip dip and a whole bag of chips BY MYSELF!. i'm such a fatty. mentally. i know im not fat physically. haha duhh.

i don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you. ^.^

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ

now i know my ABC's. next time wont you (pretty please) sing with me? :)

i have a cat. i am petting my cat. she is cute. and fat. i love her.

'you're not alone. there is more to this i know'
good song.
vereSOPHhrhbferfbnjklhnfy good song.
haha i typed soph in all caps. ON ACCIDENT. it's a sign. i love that girl :P
haha yah... that's cool.

boo...

i can't stop the tears from falling. the emptiness in my head gets larger and larger with every breath i take. i know that i will never be the same again. i know my point of view has changed. i can't fight the feeling of wanting to hurt myself cause pain. because at the rate life is now, everything is a disguise and the moment something seems real you know it it's fake and should be trusted. everyone has a masque on. so do i as well? the feeling of never letting go has gone and no i'm ready to release my grasp. am i?

Jessica, this is for you.

so yah. i really don't know what is going through my head, but i think that i hate you. just saying. :)