Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Ghosts That We Knew.
Not sure why I still post on here.
But I see Sam this month. I'm so excited that I just want to laugh and cry. Maybe things are different with me, but I think our friendship will be the same. Months and months ago he said "I don't think this is the end. Our story just hasn't been written yet."
Sometimes, stupidly, I hope this to be true. With all my heart actually. Everything happens for a reason, I guess.
I'm with Matt now for a reason, and that makes me happy.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Samuel.
I got a letter today I the mail. It wasn't anything special.
Just said "I miss you"
But it was from my very best friend.
It was from That Paradiddlediddle kid.
He's the one that cries when we watch Hot Rod.
He's the one that hugged me goodbye every night,
and texted me good morning every day.
He's the one who I understood.
He's the one who cared when I went to hospital
before he even knew me.
He's the one who tickled me,
and annoyed the hell out of me.
He's the one that woke me up at 6am to go jogging with him.
He's the one that said "you can lay next to me.. If you want"
and he's the one that said "I can't think of a life without you anymore."
He is honesty.
He smells like happiness on a snowy day.
He's the one who, despite my complaining, ranting, and venting,
stayed up until the early hours of the morning to listen to me.
He's the one who danced with me.
He's the one who I would lay on the beach with,
and sing Blue October with.
He's the one that knew me.
He's the one that would laugh with me.
He wrestled with me.
He's the one I shared popcorn with.
He's the one who brought me coffee during my finals
to help me stay awake.
He's the one who would look into my eyes,
and read my mind.
He's the one I would get in food fights with.
He never says a hurtful thing.
He's the one who would sleep over,
and watch That 70's show all night with me.
He was the reason I started to smile again.
He is my confidence.
He's the one who would play video games with me.
He ate ice cream with me,
and he laughed at all my unicorn jokes.
He's shy, and cute
(Actually, no. He's adorable).
He's the one that just looked at me when I cried and said "hey, it'll all be okay."
He's the one that tried to learn piano for me.
He's the one that believed in me,
and didn't mock my stupid fears and freak outs.
He's the one that made me start to realize
I can be more than I ever imagined.
He's the first thing on my mind in the morning.
He is poetry.
He is inspiration.
He's the one who ever so gently held my fingers in his.
He's the one that said "Phee, don't be so self conscious all the time.
It isn't worth it."
He's my sexy saxophone player.
He's the person who would pretend to rap with me.
He would run ahead while I walked the dog,
and so the dog would pull me.
He's the one that would say sorry for it two seconds later.
He is more passionate about music than anyone I've ever met.
He is open minded.
He's the one that would sit on a bus with me for two hours
just to get Krispy Kreme donuts.
He's my best friend.
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| He was sleepy. |
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| I promise I'm drinking Diet Coke hahah |
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| The Walk Off The Earth concert. <3 |
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
I like how British people say stupid.
"Shtuped"
Mike texted me yesterday. He simply said, "Phee, I miss you". I miss him, too. A girl can't simply live without her best friend. One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone says that guys and girls can't be best friends. Well guess what, suckers? They can. And I miss him very much. It's been too long (three months) since we've walked at night, ate noodles and tortilla chips, and played guitar and sang. Dang. Hahah, I'm being a baby. I'll see him this summer! <3
So Sam came over yesterday and Saturday.
:) :) :)
"Shtuped"
Mike texted me yesterday. He simply said, "Phee, I miss you". I miss him, too. A girl can't simply live without her best friend. One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone says that guys and girls can't be best friends. Well guess what, suckers? They can. And I miss him very much. It's been too long (three months) since we've walked at night, ate noodles and tortilla chips, and played guitar and sang. Dang. Hahah, I'm being a baby. I'll see him this summer! <3
So Sam came over yesterday and Saturday.
:) :) :)
Saturday, May 19, 2012
If I should have a daughter
If I should have a daughter, instead of "Mom," she's gonna call me "Point B," because that way she knows that no matter what happens, at least she can always find her way to me.
And I'm going to paint solar systems on the backs of her hands so she has to learn the entire universe before she can say, "Oh, I know that like the back of my hand."
And she's going to learn that this life will hit you hard in the face, wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach.
getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air. There is hurt, here, that cannot be fixed by Band-Aids or poetry.
So the first time she realizes that Wonder Woman isn't coming, I'll make sure she knows she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers, your hands will always be too small to catch all the pain you want to heal.
Believe me, I've tried. "And, baby," I'll tell her, don't keep your nose up in the air like that.
I know that trick; I've done it a million times.
You're just smelling for smoke so you can follow the trail back to a burning house, so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire to see if you can save him.
Or else find the boy who lit the fire in the first place, to see if you can change him."
But I know she will anyway, so instead I'll always keep an extra supply of chocolate and rain boots nearby, because there is no heartbreak that chocolate can't fix.
Okay, there's a few heartbreaks that chocolate can't fix.
But that's what the rain boots are for, because rain will wash away everything, if you let it. I want her to look at the world through the underside of a glass-bottom boat, to look through a microscope at the galaxies that exist on the pinpoint of a human mind, because that's the way my mom taught me.
That there'll be days like this.
♫ There'll be days like this, my momma said. ♫
When you open your hands to catch and wind up with only blisters and bruises; when you step out of the phone booth and try to fly and the very people you want to save are the ones standing on your cape; when your boots will fill with rain, and you'll be up to your knees in disappointment.
And those are the very days you have all the more reason to say thank you.
Because there's nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it's sent away.
You will put the wind in winsome, lose some.
You will put the star in starting over, and over.
And no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute, be sure your mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life. And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting, I am pretty damn naive.
But I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar. It can crumble so easily, but don't be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it.
"Baby," I'll tell her, "remember, your momma is a worrier, and your poppa is a warrior, and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes who never stops asking for more."
Remember that good things come in threes and so do bad things.
And always apologize when you've done something wrong, but don't you ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.
Your voice is small, but don't ever stop singing.
And when they finally hand you heartache, when they slip war and hatred under your door and offer you handouts on street-corners of cynicism and defeat, you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.
-Sarah Kay
And I'm going to paint solar systems on the backs of her hands so she has to learn the entire universe before she can say, "Oh, I know that like the back of my hand."
And she's going to learn that this life will hit you hard in the face, wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach.
getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air. There is hurt, here, that cannot be fixed by Band-Aids or poetry.
So the first time she realizes that Wonder Woman isn't coming, I'll make sure she knows she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers, your hands will always be too small to catch all the pain you want to heal.
Believe me, I've tried. "And, baby," I'll tell her, don't keep your nose up in the air like that.
I know that trick; I've done it a million times.
You're just smelling for smoke so you can follow the trail back to a burning house, so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire to see if you can save him.
Or else find the boy who lit the fire in the first place, to see if you can change him."
But I know she will anyway, so instead I'll always keep an extra supply of chocolate and rain boots nearby, because there is no heartbreak that chocolate can't fix.
Okay, there's a few heartbreaks that chocolate can't fix.
But that's what the rain boots are for, because rain will wash away everything, if you let it. I want her to look at the world through the underside of a glass-bottom boat, to look through a microscope at the galaxies that exist on the pinpoint of a human mind, because that's the way my mom taught me.
That there'll be days like this.
♫ There'll be days like this, my momma said. ♫
When you open your hands to catch and wind up with only blisters and bruises; when you step out of the phone booth and try to fly and the very people you want to save are the ones standing on your cape; when your boots will fill with rain, and you'll be up to your knees in disappointment.
And those are the very days you have all the more reason to say thank you.
Because there's nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it's sent away.
You will put the wind in winsome, lose some.
You will put the star in starting over, and over.
And no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute, be sure your mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life. And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting, I am pretty damn naive.
But I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar. It can crumble so easily, but don't be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it.
"Baby," I'll tell her, "remember, your momma is a worrier, and your poppa is a warrior, and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes who never stops asking for more."
Remember that good things come in threes and so do bad things.
And always apologize when you've done something wrong, but don't you ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.
Your voice is small, but don't ever stop singing.
And when they finally hand you heartache, when they slip war and hatred under your door and offer you handouts on street-corners of cynicism and defeat, you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.
-Sarah Kay
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Today was possibly the dumbest I have ever had to go through.
I just love a good day!
The morning started off slow. Literally. I couldn't move my foot, because it hurt so bad, so I kind of limped all over the place. The shower had a giant beetle in it. Then I had to walk to neighbors dog for an hour. How the heck to people walk their dogs for an hour everyday and keep themselves entertained? All I did was talk to the dog, and will him not to take a giant shit on someones lawn. Then I fell asleep, because I only got two hours of sleep. When I awoke from my slumber I got a "You're a let down, you'll never be good enough because you're lazy and you'll fail in life because you're worthless" lecture from the parents.Again. I think I have their speeches memorized. Then I left, and waited at the beach for Carlene. For an hour. We chilled for like 2 seconds (seemingly), and then she left because Sam was gonna come over...but he didn't come over. So I sat at home alone. On a Saturday night.
How lovely!
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It's me, wiping off the stir fry I just spilled all over my dads keyboard.
The morning started off slow. Literally. I couldn't move my foot, because it hurt so bad, so I kind of limped all over the place. The shower had a giant beetle in it. Then I had to walk to neighbors dog for an hour. How the heck to people walk their dogs for an hour everyday and keep themselves entertained? All I did was talk to the dog, and will him not to take a giant shit on someones lawn. Then I fell asleep, because I only got two hours of sleep. When I awoke from my slumber I got a "You're a let down, you'll never be good enough because you're lazy and you'll fail in life because you're worthless" lecture from the parents.Again. I think I have their speeches memorized. Then I left, and waited at the beach for Carlene. For an hour. We chilled for like 2 seconds (seemingly), and then she left because Sam was gonna come over...but he didn't come over. So I sat at home alone. On a Saturday night.
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Thursday, May 10, 2012
something slightly deep
I dream that I go to far away places. I dream that I grow up and become somebody. I dream that maybe I'll change someones world. I dream that I'll build my own motorcycle, and travel the country. I dream that I'll fall in love. I dream of crazy things like world peace, and forgiveness. I dream that I'll be able to be who I am without judgement. I dream that if there's a God, he'll realize I'm an ignorant teenager who's supposed to mess up. I dream that I'll be able to live my entire life with a smile on my face.
“All human beings are also dream beings. Dreaming ties all mankind together.”
-Jack KerouacSunday, May 6, 2012
I will posses your heart.
This weekend has been fabulous! And there's still today left :)
I'm so in love with my friends. Things only seem to be getting better and better.
Friday I went to the beach with Sam, Hannah, and Spencer. I had a good time, I must say, although I did get my pants all wet. We made music in the sand, and played under the pier. After the beach we went up and ate at El Torito :) I freaking love Mexican food, and I love those three cheese heads.
All in all, it was a good day.
Yesterday after the competition Sam came over and we watched Hot Rod.
Best.
Movie.
Ever.
I'm not joking, either. Sam laughed so hard he cried. That's a good sign, right? :] Then we went at got ice cream at 10:30. Night time walks are the very best things ever. Well, one of the very best things ever. But the moon was so huge and beautiful, there was no way I was gonna have someone drive us. Walking was awesome! Plus walking time is talking time, and talking about Heaven and Hell is pretty deep stuff. Or... It can be. Sam didn't leave until 1ish, when my dad came down and reminded us of the time.
It was a good night :) I have nothing more to say
<3
I'm so in love with my friends. Things only seem to be getting better and better.
Friday I went to the beach with Sam, Hannah, and Spencer. I had a good time, I must say, although I did get my pants all wet. We made music in the sand, and played under the pier. After the beach we went up and ate at El Torito :) I freaking love Mexican food, and I love those three cheese heads.
All in all, it was a good day.
Yesterday after the competition Sam came over and we watched Hot Rod.
Best.
Movie.
Ever.
I'm not joking, either. Sam laughed so hard he cried. That's a good sign, right? :] Then we went at got ice cream at 10:30. Night time walks are the very best things ever. Well, one of the very best things ever. But the moon was so huge and beautiful, there was no way I was gonna have someone drive us. Walking was awesome! Plus walking time is talking time, and talking about Heaven and Hell is pretty deep stuff. Or... It can be. Sam didn't leave until 1ish, when my dad came down and reminded us of the time.
It was a good night :) I have nothing more to say
<3
Thursday, May 3, 2012
"If I'm not back again this time tomorrow, carry on."
Words can't really describe how sorry I am for what I did to you.
But when I said all the words I said, good and bad, I meant them. And I now you have to move on and be your own person.
"I want you to move to California for yourself,
I want you to find whatever your heart needs,
I want you to move to California for yourself, but not for me."
But when I said all the words I said, good and bad, I meant them. And I now you have to move on and be your own person.
"I want you to move to California for yourself,
I want you to find whatever your heart needs,
I want you to move to California for yourself, but not for me."
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Is that seat taken?
Can I just say how awesome this weekend has already been?
Yesterday I went camping with the marching band. We played Hunger Games!!!! totally my idea, by the way. And may I say it was the best idea ever? Me and Matt O'Connell teamed up and decided that we were from district four. And boy, we took these games seriously. I was running so much. My adrenaline was totally pumping, and I'm sure I lost a ound or two while being there. :)
Me, Tammy and Matt Cortez pretty much stayed up all night. The hourish that we actually did sleep, was spent cuddled up on a metal picnic table, being totally freezing. That is the most uncomfortable way to sleep ever, and I STRONGLY advise against it. But it was really fun, and I had a wonderful time being absoluty sore all night. And I fell alseep at subway cuz I was so tired.
Then this morning I went to drumline. I pinched my finger under my bass stand, and it like expoled and imploded AT THE SAME TIME. It swelled up to like... super huge, and then it turned green, blue, red, yellow and brown D: Let's just say that it was in no way pretty. At all. It still hurts so bad.
Anyways, mormon prom is soon, and I'm really hoping my buddy Sam will go with me, Hannah, and Spencer.
Can I get a 'ppppaaaarrrttttayyyy'?
Yesterday I went camping with the marching band. We played Hunger Games!!!! totally my idea, by the way. And may I say it was the best idea ever? Me and Matt O'Connell teamed up and decided that we were from district four. And boy, we took these games seriously. I was running so much. My adrenaline was totally pumping, and I'm sure I lost a ound or two while being there. :)
Me, Tammy and Matt Cortez pretty much stayed up all night. The hourish that we actually did sleep, was spent cuddled up on a metal picnic table, being totally freezing. That is the most uncomfortable way to sleep ever, and I STRONGLY advise against it. But it was really fun, and I had a wonderful time being absoluty sore all night. And I fell alseep at subway cuz I was so tired.
Then this morning I went to drumline. I pinched my finger under my bass stand, and it like expoled and imploded AT THE SAME TIME. It swelled up to like... super huge, and then it turned green, blue, red, yellow and brown D: Let's just say that it was in no way pretty. At all. It still hurts so bad.
Anyways, mormon prom is soon, and I'm really hoping my buddy Sam will go with me, Hannah, and Spencer.
Can I get a 'ppppaaaarrrttttayyyy'?
Thursday, April 19, 2012
you're special :]
It's amazing how someone's smile can make your world. The fact that you're the one that is making this person smile can make your world. :)
Yesterday I had a drumline fundraiser at McDonalds. It was surprisingly fun. Usually fundraisers are super lame, and you just sit around getting rejected by people who don't really care. But this one was different! In the beginging I was just with Charles and we were doing a super bomb job selling cookies. People just love us... actually, people just love him. He did all the work, but I smiled and took peoples money and put it in a bucket. It was a nice to at least help out a little. Then me and Sam went to the front doors and then sat there for about an hour. It would have been super boring, but Sam is pretty entertaining to talk to, and to sing Blue October songs with.
I just had a good time yesterday. I was happy for the first time in a long time, and I felt special for the first time in a long time. Like I meant something to some people. It was just nice.
Yesterday I had a drumline fundraiser at McDonalds. It was surprisingly fun. Usually fundraisers are super lame, and you just sit around getting rejected by people who don't really care. But this one was different! In the beginging I was just with Charles and we were doing a super bomb job selling cookies. People just love us... actually, people just love him. He did all the work, but I smiled and took peoples money and put it in a bucket. It was a nice to at least help out a little. Then me and Sam went to the front doors and then sat there for about an hour. It would have been super boring, but Sam is pretty entertaining to talk to, and to sing Blue October songs with.
I just had a good time yesterday. I was happy for the first time in a long time, and I felt special for the first time in a long time. Like I meant something to some people. It was just nice.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Monday, April 9, 2012
I can't think of words to say
This sums up everything I've been feeling the past couple of days.
Everything.
<3
Everything.
<3
Monday, April 2, 2012
:] I love my life
I'm never moving back to Springville, Utah.
I love that fact that everyone hates me, so now I don't have to worry about it.
But the nice, they're the world to me. The rest?
Ehhh.
Thanks you California, for being my home now.
Sammie
Mike
Miranda
Brendan
Matthew
Michelle and Pang
Jessica
Sophia
If I've forgotten you, I'm sorry.
But...
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU :)
:'(
I love that fact that everyone hates me, so now I don't have to worry about it.
But the nice, they're the world to me. The rest?
Ehhh.
Thanks you California, for being my home now.
Sammie
Mike
Miranda
Brendan
Matthew
Michelle and Pang
Jessica
Sophia
If I've forgotten you, I'm sorry.
But...
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU :)
:'(
sweat pants today?
There are some days, where you just wake up and you know it's going to be a 'sweat pants' day.
It's the days when you have to wake up at 5:30, but you sleep in till 5:50.
The days when you get your cereal all ready, you even cut up strawberries, but the milk has gone bad.
The days when your iPod dies before school even starts.
When you spill sticky juice all over, and then slip on it -____-
But,
I refuse to let today become a 'sweat pants' day.
Don't get me wrong, I'm probably wearing sweat pants to school today. But I can't let it get me down! You may be asking yourself "Phee, it's 7:07 in the morning. Why on earth does anyone care if you're wearing sweat pants today or not"
Well I will tell you. You don't. But I'm telling you these things, so that yu don't make today (or any day) a 'sweat pants' day. Today while wearing my sweat pants that make my behind look like a mountain, I'm going to write a list of all the little things that make me happy. Maybe I'll turn them into a cute poem or something.
Don't be expecting too much though.
Anyways,
my dear friend Miranda is currently in India. And as jealous as I am of her, I hope she has a wonderful time doing good things for the people in my very favorite Hindu culture. I hope she learns a lot, and maybe says hello to an elephant -if she meets one- for me :)
Do good things, girl! I miss ya :)
It's the days when you have to wake up at 5:30, but you sleep in till 5:50.
The days when you get your cereal all ready, you even cut up strawberries, but the milk has gone bad.
The days when your iPod dies before school even starts.
When you spill sticky juice all over, and then slip on it -____-
But,
I refuse to let today become a 'sweat pants' day.
Don't get me wrong, I'm probably wearing sweat pants to school today. But I can't let it get me down! You may be asking yourself "Phee, it's 7:07 in the morning. Why on earth does anyone care if you're wearing sweat pants today or not"
Well I will tell you. You don't. But I'm telling you these things, so that yu don't make today (or any day) a 'sweat pants' day. Today while wearing my sweat pants that make my behind look like a mountain, I'm going to write a list of all the little things that make me happy. Maybe I'll turn them into a cute poem or something.
Don't be expecting too much though.
Anyways,
my dear friend Miranda is currently in India. And as jealous as I am of her, I hope she has a wonderful time doing good things for the people in my very favorite Hindu culture. I hope she learns a lot, and maybe says hello to an elephant -if she meets one- for me :)
Do good things, girl! I miss ya :)
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Now we can see.
Today has been totally completely great. We kinda got first place. Sorta. haha ;)
Some of us (Adam, Chris, Michael, Carly, Emalee and Bryant) went to Eat At Joe's this morning for breakfast at 6:30. The food was super good. Me and Adam shared some dish that I can't pronounce, but it tasted like bacon cheesebuger hashbrowns X] Brendan called me at breakfast for some reason :) even though he was only proving a point to Tyler, it was still really good to hear from him. They were watching the sun rise for a longboarding video. I hope it turns out well :)
I love my drumline :) we're awesome, and we're pretty bad A. Just saying :)
Some of us (Adam, Chris, Michael, Carly, Emalee and Bryant) went to Eat At Joe's this morning for breakfast at 6:30. The food was super good. Me and Adam shared some dish that I can't pronounce, but it tasted like bacon cheesebuger hashbrowns X] Brendan called me at breakfast for some reason :) even though he was only proving a point to Tyler, it was still really good to hear from him. They were watching the sun rise for a longboarding video. I hope it turns out well :)
I love my drumline :) we're awesome, and we're pretty bad A. Just saying :)
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
I am friends with gentlemen
Today was a very good day. It was a minimum day at school and so that means that school gets out at 12:30. After that I had drumline.
Ahh drumline.
It was pretty much wonderful, and I have my music (almost kinda) 100% memorized. Our first performance is is in a couple weeks, and I'm sure I'll be ready, but I'm super nervous cuz... well. it's performing. So it's a bit nerve racking.
Anyways,
after drumline Adam was waiting at the school, and I didn't wanna go home, so I just chilled with him. We just played guitar and talked about music before we walked to Subway and RiteAid. I love Thrifty icecream XD it's my very favorite icecream ever :)
And the weather wasn't too awful either.
Ahh drumline.
It was pretty much wonderful, and I have my music (almost kinda) 100% memorized. Our first performance is is in a couple weeks, and I'm sure I'll be ready, but I'm super nervous cuz... well. it's performing. So it's a bit nerve racking.
Anyways,
after drumline Adam was waiting at the school, and I didn't wanna go home, so I just chilled with him. We just played guitar and talked about music before we walked to Subway and RiteAid. I love Thrifty icecream XD it's my very favorite icecream ever :)
And the weather wasn't too awful either.
Friday, March 16, 2012
There is this kid Sam and he's soooooooo annoying. All he does is sleep. All the time. And He's in DRUMLINE. What's with that? psh. drumline.
No, just kidding. Actually Sam is a pretty cool kid. And drumline doesn't deserve and 'psh'. Drumline is awesome.
This post was just for me to rant about Sam for him. I don't think it's going anywhere so..
I'm making stir fry tonight for dinner :)
No, just kidding. Actually Sam is a pretty cool kid. And drumline doesn't deserve and 'psh'. Drumline is awesome.
This post was just for me to rant about Sam for him. I don't think it's going anywhere so..
I'm making stir fry tonight for dinner :)
Monday, March 12, 2012
Bored.
I'm bored all the time.
And I don't think I'm too happy, either.
Oh well, that's life I guess.
I want my friends to move here :(
At least drumline continues to be good :)
And I don't think I'm too happy, either.
Oh well, that's life I guess.
I want my friends to move here :(
At least drumline continues to be good :)
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Moths
Moths are the most beautiful animals in the animal kingdom. At one time they were more colourful than the butterflies. They have always been helpful, kind, and generous creatures. One day the angels up in heaven were crying. They were sad because it was cloudy and they couldn’t look down upon the people on earth. Their tears fell down to the earth as rain. The sweet little moths hated to see everyone so sad. They decided to make a rainbow. The moths figured that if they asked their cousins, the butterflies, to help, they could all give up just a little bit of their colours and they could make a beautiful rainbow.
Now the once colourful moths were plain and brown. The angels up in heaven saw the rainbow, and became joyous. They smiled and the warmth of their smiles shown down on the earth as sunshine. The warm sunshine made the people on earth happy and they smiled, too. Now every time it rains the baby moths, who still have their colours, spread them across the sky to make more rainbows.
One of the littlest moths flew to ask the queen of the butterflies for help. The butterflies were too vain and selfish to give up any of their colours for neither the people nor the angels. So, the moths decided to try to make the rainbow themselves. They beat their wings very hard and the powder on them formed little clouds that the winds smoothed over like glass. Unfortunately, the rainbow wasn’t big enough so the moths kept giving a little more and a little more until the rainbow stretched all the way across the sky. They had given away all their colour except brown, which didn’t fit into their beautiful rainbow.
Now the once colourful moths were plain and brown. The angels up in heaven saw the rainbow, and became joyous. They smiled and the warmth of their smiles shown down on the earth as sunshine. The warm sunshine made the people on earth happy and they smiled, too. Now every time it rains the baby moths, who still have their colours, spread them across the sky to make more rainbows.
Photo by: Phoenix Mackley
Story by: Unknown
Friday, March 9, 2012
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Well, I returned from Utah earlier today. It was fun.
I hung out with mostly everyone I wanted to.
Me and Mike hung out quite a bit. I love my best friend :) Me and Matt had some amazing times. I had great moments with the girls, and I actually willingly went to school, and I think I learned from it....or something like that. The best part of the whole thing was that it felt like I never left. I was so worried about things being different, or weird. But they only were for about two seconds. Then it was a jolly old time. I was totes happy, and those awful butterflies in tummy went away.
I guess home is just always home. You can be 900 miles away from everything and everyone that meant anything to you.. But the once modest city of Springville will always be my home filled with my best friends and family. It's filled with those cute crazy things called memories.
All the nights in Provo huddled close in the cold, or walking through wheat fields in the heat of summer. Laying in a dim lit room playing guitar with the guys, or sitting at a playground on a freezing cold night pouring my heart out to a friend. Sitting around and eating Spaghetti and Chips while watching How I met Your Mother :)
To say the least, I loved the trip. Every tiny moment.
I hung out with mostly everyone I wanted to.
Me and Mike hung out quite a bit. I love my best friend :) Me and Matt had some amazing times. I had great moments with the girls, and I actually willingly went to school, and I think I learned from it....or something like that. The best part of the whole thing was that it felt like I never left. I was so worried about things being different, or weird. But they only were for about two seconds. Then it was a jolly old time. I was totes happy, and those awful butterflies in tummy went away.
I guess home is just always home. You can be 900 miles away from everything and everyone that meant anything to you.. But the once modest city of Springville will always be my home filled with my best friends and family. It's filled with those cute crazy things called memories.
All the nights in Provo huddled close in the cold, or walking through wheat fields in the heat of summer. Laying in a dim lit room playing guitar with the guys, or sitting at a playground on a freezing cold night pouring my heart out to a friend. Sitting around and eating Spaghetti and Chips while watching How I met Your Mother :)
To say the least, I loved the trip. Every tiny moment.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
I'm coming to Utah on Tuesday
I'm super nervous, and I have lost the ability to communicate with friends. So I'll just piss everyone off and get made fun of. Oh wait.
That's just like old times.
Actually, I'm quite excited. I know it won't be the same as when I lived there. It will be different. I don't know if it will be good different, or bad different. But it will be different. I'm thinking that maybe people won't want to see me. The thought that "I've been gone for four months; I should just stay here" keeps popping into my head. It's probably just the butterflies in my belly talking to the racking in my head. I'm nervous. I haven't seen my friends in four months. What do I say? How do I act? Do I hug people, or is that asking too much of everyone?
This shouldn't be a big deal.
Hah. It isn't a big deal but I can't stop making it out to be one. I'm afraid.
Happy
Sad
Excited
Everything.
When I left there was a lot of bad blood.. Will it still be that way?
That's just like old times.
Actually, I'm quite excited. I know it won't be the same as when I lived there. It will be different. I don't know if it will be good different, or bad different. But it will be different. I'm thinking that maybe people won't want to see me. The thought that "I've been gone for four months; I should just stay here" keeps popping into my head. It's probably just the butterflies in my belly talking to the racking in my head. I'm nervous. I haven't seen my friends in four months. What do I say? How do I act? Do I hug people, or is that asking too much of everyone?
This shouldn't be a big deal.
Hah. It isn't a big deal but I can't stop making it out to be one. I'm afraid.
Happy
Sad
Excited
Everything.
When I left there was a lot of bad blood.. Will it still be that way?
Maybe I should just stay home and not get out of bed.
That seems like a good plan right?
Ugh. I feel like I'm giving a talk in church. That feeling where
you just really want to not do it,
but you know it will be a good talk.
Or somthing along those lines.
blahhh.
Friday, February 24, 2012
"Man, she's ugly"
And I just know they're talking about me.
They say it as I enter the room, the only girl present.
They laugh as if they've made a really funny joke, and I just take my seat, trying to hide my face.
"Ew, look at the girl. Ugly, man."
This time, it's as I'm walking across the crosswalk. Them going one way, me going the other.
I turn around from entering McDonalds, feeling fat and gross, and skipping dinner that night.
I'm with a group of friends at a dance. I'm the only one not asked to dance.
Not even once.
And I just know they're talking about me.
They say it as I enter the room, the only girl present.
They laugh as if they've made a really funny joke, and I just take my seat, trying to hide my face.
"Ew, look at the girl. Ugly, man."
This time, it's as I'm walking across the crosswalk. Them going one way, me going the other.
I turn around from entering McDonalds, feeling fat and gross, and skipping dinner that night.
I'm with a group of friends at a dance. I'm the only one not asked to dance.
Not even once.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
It's a new dawn, a new day.
Aside from being rushed to the hospital on Wednesday, this has been a very great week. Like I said in an earlier post, I went to Chronical (it was AMAZING).
On Sunday I went to the beach and some guy tried to pick me up... Let's just say it was awkward, and his 'girl pick-up' skills absolutly suck. And he needed to brush his teeth D:
But yesterday I went to the beach with Hannah. We went boarding, and then explored for like ever. We found the most pretty beach in the world. It was next to these big beautiful cliffs. There were a bunch of surfers and it was grand. So beautiful!
On Sunday I went to the beach and some guy tried to pick me up... Let's just say it was awkward, and his 'girl pick-up' skills absolutly suck. And he needed to brush his teeth D:
But yesterday I went to the beach with Hannah. We went boarding, and then explored for like ever. We found the most pretty beach in the world. It was next to these big beautiful cliffs. There were a bunch of surfers and it was grand. So beautiful!
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| Reflection and Shadow. Gotta love Low tide. |
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| I look like a weirdy |
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| best beach trail ever |
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| Longboarding trail :) |
Saturday, February 18, 2012
"Yesterday,
all my troubles seemed so far away."
I'm not just referencing The Beatles here. This is a true fact. Yesterday was a pretty great day. I totally forgot about everything that was going on and had some fun. After school I went to the Mall with a bunch of friends and it was really fun... well, it was really fun until the mall cops came and told us we couldn't all be together. Then it was just sorta really fun XD But the best part of the whole entire night, was seeing the movie Chronicle.
It
was
so
good.
It was the best movie I have ever seen in my entire life! Well... It's definitely a runner up. It was just awesome. After it ended my mind was just like... whoa. It was all I could think about all night. I'm pretty sure I dreamed about it. I wish I was telekinetic or something. That would be the absolute coolest power on the planet. But after watching that movie it's sorta freaky what it can do...
I'm not just referencing The Beatles here. This is a true fact. Yesterday was a pretty great day. I totally forgot about everything that was going on and had some fun. After school I went to the Mall with a bunch of friends and it was really fun... well, it was really fun until the mall cops came and told us we couldn't all be together. Then it was just sorta really fun XD But the best part of the whole entire night, was seeing the movie Chronicle.
It
was
so
good.
It was the best movie I have ever seen in my entire life! Well... It's definitely a runner up. It was just awesome. After it ended my mind was just like... whoa. It was all I could think about all night. I'm pretty sure I dreamed about it. I wish I was telekinetic or something. That would be the absolute coolest power on the planet. But after watching that movie it's sorta freaky what it can do...
You'll have to watch it.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
Well... Phone number three. Gone.
It decided to take a ....plunge, per say, into the toilet. Thank God the toilet was 100% clean. But unfortunatly my phone does want to turn itself back on again. Oh well, life is life.
Things have been pretty good lately. I joined drumline, and I'mm playing 3rd bass. It's pretty chill. It's like I finally have my drumline family back. Now, they're no where near as amazing as the other guys... But they're pretty fun to hang around, and they're all very nice. There is a kid that reminds me of Brendan. He looks, acts, and talks the same way. But he's short, and... Not white. Haha. And there is Sam, who acts a lot like a Cody/Joe hybrid.. For those of you that know those two gentlemen, it is a very weird mix. But he is. Hah.
Hmm. So lately I have been thinking a lot about my life. My future. Sometimes I tell people what I want to do. Who I want to be. Who I want to be with. But in all honesty, I have no idea. I would like to know the future. Then I wouldn't have to worry about breaking promises, hearts, fingers, toes, and other breakable things. But in the memorable words of Panic! At The Disco, "We should have known right from the start you can't predict the end."
Anyways... Anything you guys wanna know..? I guess I'll keep you updated if you want.
p.s. I'm on a diet.
I am failing sooooo much :'( someone kill me now.
It decided to take a ....plunge, per say, into the toilet. Thank God the toilet was 100% clean. But unfortunatly my phone does want to turn itself back on again. Oh well, life is life.
Things have been pretty good lately. I joined drumline, and I'mm playing 3rd bass. It's pretty chill. It's like I finally have my drumline family back. Now, they're no where near as amazing as the other guys... But they're pretty fun to hang around, and they're all very nice. There is a kid that reminds me of Brendan. He looks, acts, and talks the same way. But he's short, and... Not white. Haha. And there is Sam, who acts a lot like a Cody/Joe hybrid.. For those of you that know those two gentlemen, it is a very weird mix. But he is. Hah.
Hmm. So lately I have been thinking a lot about my life. My future. Sometimes I tell people what I want to do. Who I want to be. Who I want to be with. But in all honesty, I have no idea. I would like to know the future. Then I wouldn't have to worry about breaking promises, hearts, fingers, toes, and other breakable things. But in the memorable words of Panic! At The Disco, "We should have known right from the start you can't predict the end."
Anyways... Anything you guys wanna know..? I guess I'll keep you updated if you want.
p.s. I'm on a diet.
I am failing sooooo much :'( someone kill me now.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Finally
I can post! :]
I may be dong this in a school computer lab... but whatever.
For a few ays now, me and Hannah have been auditioning fir the school musical.
How To Succeed In Business Without Really Trying
Kind of Exciting. Finally I have something to do! Hahah XD
And Charles is going to try t get me a battery spot on drumline, even though I missed the maditory meeting. So excited!
I'm starting to have a life kind of. It's great.
I may be dong this in a school computer lab... but whatever.
For a few ays now, me and Hannah have been auditioning fir the school musical.
How To Succeed In Business Without Really Trying
Kind of Exciting. Finally I have something to do! Hahah XD
And Charles is going to try t get me a battery spot on drumline, even though I missed the maditory meeting. So excited!
I'm starting to have a life kind of. It's great.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
"Welcome to Hell"
Thank you, Chase, for so very well summing up my moving experience.
California is rough. I mean.. now I have friends and stuff but.. no one I can really hang out with. It's still awkawrd to be around... people.
Oh.
And I was going to come visit Utah this week.. but I guess it's a no go..
California is rough. I mean.. now I have friends and stuff but.. no one I can really hang out with. It's still awkawrd to be around... people.
Oh.
And I was going to come visit Utah this week.. but I guess it's a no go..
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