Is that seat taken?

Can I just say how awesome this weekend has already been?
Yesterday I went camping with the marching band. We played Hunger Games!!!! totally my idea, by the way. And may I say it was the best idea ever? Me and Matt O'Connell teamed up and decided that we were from district four. And boy, we took these games seriously. I was running so much. My adrenaline was totally pumping, and I'm sure I lost a ound or two while being there. :)

Me, Tammy and Matt Cortez pretty much stayed up all night. The hourish that we actually did sleep, was spent cuddled up on a metal picnic table, being totally freezing. That is the most uncomfortable way to sleep ever, and I STRONGLY advise against it. But it was really fun, and I had a wonderful time being absoluty sore all night. And I fell alseep at subway cuz I was so tired.
    Then this morning I went to drumline. I pinched my finger under my bass stand, and it like expoled and imploded AT THE SAME TIME. It swelled up to like... super huge, and then it turned green, blue, red, yellow and brown D: Let's just say that it was in no way pretty. At all. It still hurts so bad.

Anyways, mormon prom is soon, and I'm really hoping my buddy Sam will go with me, Hannah, and Spencer.
Can I get a 'ppppaaaarrrttttayyyy'?

you're special :]

It's amazing how someone's smile can make your world. The fact that you're the one that is making this person smile can make your world. :)

Yesterday I had a drumline fundraiser at McDonalds. It was surprisingly fun. Usually fundraisers are super lame, and you just sit around getting rejected by people who don't really care. But this one was different! In the beginging I was just with Charles and we were doing a super bomb job selling cookies. People just love us... actually, people just love him. He did all the work, but I smiled and took peoples money and put it in a bucket. It was a nice to at least help out a little. Then me and Sam went to the front doors and then sat there for about an hour. It would have been super boring, but Sam is pretty entertaining to talk to, and to sing Blue October songs with.
I just had a good time yesterday. I was happy for the first time in a long time, and I felt special for the first time in a long time. Like I meant something to some people. It was just nice.

So much self-doubt.
And no where to put it.
Lately it feels like what very little confidence I had has just run away.
I think I'm gonna delete my blog. I don't even know what to say anymore.

It's time to face the fact that I am a nobody,
who can't even think of a cliche thing to write.

But at least I'm happy.

I can't think of words to say

This sums up everything I've been feeling the past couple of days.
Everything.

<3

:] I love my life

I'm never moving back to Springville, Utah.

I love that fact that everyone hates me, so now I don't have to worry about it.
But the nice, they're the world to me. The rest?
Ehhh.



Thanks you California, for being my home now.

Sammie
Mike
Miranda
Brendan
Matthew
Michelle and Pang
Jessica
Sophia
If I've forgotten you, I'm sorry.
But...

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU :)




:'(

sweat pants today?

There are some days, where you just wake up and you know it's going to be a 'sweat pants' day.
It's the days when you have to wake up at 5:30, but you sleep in till 5:50.
The days when you get your cereal all ready, you even cut up strawberries, but the milk has gone bad.
The days when your iPod dies before school even starts.
When you spill sticky juice all over, and then slip on it -____-
But,
I refuse to let today become a 'sweat pants' day.
Don't get me wrong, I'm probably wearing sweat pants to school today. But I can't let it get me down! You may be asking yourself "Phee, it's 7:07 in the morning. Why on earth does anyone care if you're wearing sweat pants today or not"
Well I will tell you. You don't. But I'm telling you these things, so that yu don't make today (or any day) a 'sweat pants' day. Today while wearing my sweat pants that make my behind look like a mountain, I'm going to write a list of all the little things that make me happy. Maybe I'll turn them into a cute poem or something.
Don't be expecting too much though.

Anyways,
my dear friend Miranda is currently in India. And as jealous as I am of her, I hope she has a wonderful time doing good things for the people in my very favorite Hindu culture. I hope she learns a lot, and maybe says hello to an elephant -if she meets one- for me :)
Do good things, girl! I miss ya :)