When I Grow Up...

well today went horrible.
let's just say i cried at everything. no matter what it was.
-sigh-
is it too late to say nevermind? ha. i wish.

i want to say something awfully cliche` and profound...but nothing is coming.
it's like recently all good and bad emotions have just ran away and hidden.

i wish i was a rock.  wouldn't know if i was happy or sad or mad. i would be perfectly content with my surroundings, and no matter where i was or what i was doing i wouldn't care much if i got broken or stepped on. i would think about the whether. if i was to get a bath or not today. that kind of easy stuff. it would be great to be a little grey rock. i found one today. i was walking with Ian talking about how i wanted to be a rock, and i found the most perfect rock a little girl like me could become. maybe i'll put a picture of myself as a rock on here someday. rocks don't have to love or hate. rocks don't live or die. they don't have to worry about God, or satan, life death. when i grow up, i shall become a rock :) or at least paint a pretty freaking cool picture of a rock. hmm. someday.

somday i'll figure out why life happens to be the worst thing ever. someday i'll figure out how it's also the best thing ever.

Madi Diaz, Let's Go

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7CjSEdfDts

Tell me baby, what's your story?

Well...alot has happened lately. But no one actually cares about that :) haha

I made a new friend. his name is Ian Lindsey and he is awesome :) I enjoy being around him very much :)

I got stuck in a bra at wal-mart... that is embarassing :D haha

I have to rant about something, world. I want to know why people get mad at each other.... Actually, I think i want to rant about the stupidity of the human race in general. Everything would be so much easier if no one judged or hated...It would be easy if no one love, lied, losed, etc. Granted, that would be the most boring thing ever, but it would be easy. People hate over the stupidest things. Like taste in music or clothes or friends... Get over it, guys. not everyone can be you. Soz bro, it's impossible. I'm being hypocritical, of course. No one is like the above explained. But that's okay :) I love all the stupid people :)

Anyways...

my heart's a stereo

Girls camp was this week. Ahh. It was amazing. I'm so glad i went. we spant all week laughing and playing music and it was really chill. Just the little gettaway i needed.
But now i'm back and reality kinda kicked in again.

Anyways, I'm prolly going to flaming gorge with Tyler and his family :) I'm super surprized my mom is actually letting me go. I guess she is realizing that I've lost alot of friends anymore and so she's letting me do what i want with whoever I have left :) and, I get to miss the first couple days of school. That means that I get to avoid faces in the hall that don't want to see me :)
Oh, Tyler is moving :) They're renting this way nice house on canyon rode. It's just regular house size, but it's the perfect size for their family....and it's a lot closer to my house. That means he can come to springville!!! :D I board right by his house to get there in the morning so could just stop and pick him up :)

I have a ton of marching band this week. I guess I'm excited. I mean, i have two weeks straight being with all the people that i love to be around :) I think I'm going to make a cake, or bring drinks or somthing to give to everyone :) haha. I think that would be so awesome :) I love the marching band and the drumline :D
They're my best friends :)