You're super duper cute.

I can't stand it.

I was talking to Jessica today. I want to fall in love again. It would be so cool and beautiful. Falling in love is the greatest thing in the world. Falling in love would just be so much more likely if I didn't want to fall back in love with the person who can't stand me most.I hate that I always do the wrong thing. I don't know how but I manage to be wrong or rude or...whatever.
Anyways, aside from messing life up, today was good. I hung out with Jessica pretty much all day. It was way fun. We played at the mall and washed her car and stuff :) way good time. Then, at the football game i talked to Mike for the first half. It was good talking to him. He is nice to talk to. I don't have bad blood with him, and he has gotten a lot nicer and he is just happy. It's good to be around happy people. Plus, he has really weird and entertaining dreams to hear about. :D
Lol.

Banned Books Week

Never walk in new shoes.
They tend to hurt your toes.
Now, this probably didn't need to be pointed out, but out of experience I wouldn't advise it.

So this week is banned books week, I guess. Apparently people are trying to ban certain books from kids because parents don't like these books.. I'm not the biggest fan of this whole thing. Our society is dying. Knowledge is easier to find then ever, and yet people are trying to block others from accessing it. That doesn't make sense to me. Schools are saying: 'Go! Get out into the world! Travel, read books, sing, dance, explore, be yourselves!... Except you can only listen to this kind of music, dance in this certain way, dress like this, talk like that. You have to be the same as your mother and your grandmother and the complete stranger that lives down the street. You may only read books that certain groups of religious mothers tell you to. And sense the world is a dangerous place, you must stay inside and and watch The Office, because that is much safer than learning.'
It seems like a flaw. People are trying to make our already illiterate United States population dumber (I lave lack for a better choice in words). This should not be the case. I think everyone should just be able to read and write and think for themselves. To experience life how they want to, without parents and teachers telling everyone what can and cannot do, and think, and say.

Well, that's the end of my rant. I am satisfied.

Today was grand! :)

Just amazing. I love music so much.
It has this way of taking all the hate out of your soul :)

Smile :)

Yesterday went really well. Today wasn't the best....got ditched. I'm used to it by now but it still sucks.
I hung out with Ian and Noah tonight. They came over at like 8ish and we went to the high school and just messed around. It was a party :) i got tickle to death. And Noah broke my freaking sword. But other then that, it was a good night.
     So yesterday I went to the guys band practice again. It's so awesome to watch them. They're freaking good at what they do. And Mike can sing... Who would have thought. He is very talented and I'm impressed. A lot. It was like a smack in the face. He's a pretty awesome guy..

I'm going to make tomorrow awesome.

I need something to hold

I cried in the middle of a road last night. Just... fell onto the road and cried.
I miss him.
But I have to be happy :) Adversity is something that i have to go through and get over. It's just a personal thing. Plus, everything is better that way.
Man... life is awesome :\

Happiness Loves Company

And so do I. From whoever I want to. Hey everybody, I'm alone with someone, that must mean we are making out. Cuz I'm just a whore like that. The biggest whore ever, haven't you heard? -__- you know, that stuff wouldn't bother me. I only care cuz people think I want to kiss every guy I some to contact with. That isn't the person i am. It sucks that for some reason everyone is under the impression I am that kind of person. It sucks.
Anyways... Today was good. i got some art projects done..




p.s. people can like who they want.. :/

I promise to always come home to you

I had a wonderful time last night!
No, I didn't go to homecoming. I did something 1000 times more fun :)
I hung out with Christa and Katelyn at first, then after not being invited places Mike and Ian came over. We went to McDonald's (I've eaten there way to much lately), then we walked home. Turns out, Mike is like... the coolest skipper ever. He like...floats down the street. Sideways. With a rainbow streaming after him. Haha. Ian and i got into a little fight, but everything worked out in the end. We (everyone mentioned above) watched Phantom of the Opera. That is an amazing movie. Just fantastic :) And I watched it some of the greatest people in the world. Ohhh. I'm starting a new blog that people can post in. Special people. Anyways...

COMING SOON!

The coolest blog ever...Only if people will write in it.

The End. Have a good day everyone :)

Always be happy..

even when you quite literally cannot.
I have to tell myself that every morning and evening and night. It's not a bad thing, really. Keeps me happy, but i hate that I have to tell myself that to even me happy. That's okay.
Everyone has off days. this is just one of mine.
I will fix everything before I move. I have to. I have to....
I went to a band competition today. Well, i was in it, actually. It was alright. The fact that i messed up horribly and made everything sound like crap will eat me alive forever and ever, but i can't let it get to me. I'm just a big ball of stupid lately. I think it's cuz I've been super nervous.. about everything. Even going to school gives me the butterflies or whatever. And not the good kind either. I'm not sure why, but I'll get to the bottom of this madness..

Sorry for being emotional lately. And hypocritical. And extremely stupid. I'm only human, but believe me, I'm trying to stop.

I'm so happy :)

Dear everyone,
     I'm sorry for being so sad lately. In all honesty it was awful. I may not have said some nice things to you, so if I said something poopy then...I'm sorry.
Today was just amazing. Like, so good that it is impossible to have anything bring you down afterwords. I could get punched in the face and told by an angry ginger that I'm stupid, and i could just giggle and ask her too cheer up :) I'm finally becoming my old self again. Someone I haven't been for a long time. Of course I'm going to be sad sometimes. I just lost someone very dear to me, and it was my fault. But that doesn't mean I should be a complete and total Butt Face Chicken Head. Also, I'm not going to call people mean names ever again, and I'm not going to use fowl language. It just hurts people's feelings. And if I hate it when people do that to me, what makes me doing it to them any different? Nothing. Nothing at all. Everyone is beautiful and everyone is different and it's so amzing to see people interact with each other kindly.

Today was Mike's birthday. I made him a cake and I started making him a birthday present, but my lame math teacher took it away. It's all good though. We had a birthday party for him, but he wasn't able to make it. But it was the greatest birthday party i have ever been too! :) We carved pumpkins and then smashed them to bits in a parking lot, we walked around outside the high school with knives :), walked to Micky D's, and then last but not least at all, went to Mike's house and sang him Happy Birthday and made sure he know we loved him.

He is on The List ;)



And isn't this the cutest thing ever? :)