well today went horrible.
let's just say i cried at everything. no matter what it was.
-sigh-
is it too late to say nevermind? ha. i wish.
i want to say something awfully cliche` and profound...but nothing is coming.
it's like recently all good and bad emotions have just ran away and hidden.
i wish i was a rock. wouldn't know if i was happy or sad or mad. i would be perfectly content with my surroundings, and no matter where i was or what i was doing i wouldn't care much if i got broken or stepped on. i would think about the whether. if i was to get a bath or not today. that kind of easy stuff. it would be great to be a little grey rock. i found one today. i was walking with Ian talking about how i wanted to be a rock, and i found the most perfect rock a little girl like me could become. maybe i'll put a picture of myself as a rock on here someday. rocks don't have to love or hate. rocks don't live or die. they don't have to worry about God, or satan, life death. when i grow up, i shall become a rock :) or at least paint a pretty freaking cool picture of a rock. hmm. someday.
somday i'll figure out why life happens to be the worst thing ever. someday i'll figure out how it's also the best thing ever.

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