even when you quite literally cannot.
I have to tell myself that every morning and evening and night. It's not a bad thing, really. Keeps me happy, but i hate that I have to tell myself that to even me happy. That's okay.
Everyone has off days. this is just one of mine.
I will fix everything before I move. I have to. I have to....
I went to a band competition today. Well, i was in it, actually. It was alright. The fact that i messed up horribly and made everything sound like crap will eat me alive forever and ever, but i can't let it get to me. I'm just a big ball of stupid lately. I think it's cuz I've been super nervous.. about everything. Even going to school gives me the butterflies or whatever. And not the good kind either. I'm not sure why, but I'll get to the bottom of this madness..
Sorry for being emotional lately. And hypocritical. And extremely stupid. I'm only human, but believe me, I'm trying to stop.
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