*For Rent*

School is the worst. I hate it.
I don't talk to anyone, and no one talks to me. But that's okay. People here seem to all be the same. Everyone is another copy of someone else.
Except for Chase, I don't know him well at all, but he's in my ward, and he seems like a decent sort of guy. Of course I can't make any judgments without knowing him well. But I like him enough to say 'hm. i can tell that we are gonna be friends'.

I've only been to the beach twice. To be honest it isn't very welcoming. Plus, it's not really my scene. I perfer to go durung the day, when all the kids my age are at school. I like to think there. Alone. That's the only time I actually want to be alone here. Which sucks, cuz I'm alone a lot. I just don't like to go after school when all these skanky girls are throwing themselves over guys while wearing practically nothing. Don't they know that when they do that, guys only want them for one thing? Crazy girls... .__.

Other then school and the beach, it isn't so bad here. L.A. is only 15 mintues away so I could totally go and try to stalk some movie star of something if i wanted to. Who knows, right?

Ah... I miss everyone so incredibly much.
I cry.
Which I feel like a baby for, but Matthew says it's cuz it means I care, and that I'm not being a baby.. I see pieces of everyone in everything. I miss people that I'm for sure never cared about me to begin with. I miss laughing with friends. I haven't laughed with a friend in a month. Forever as it seems, I think there is some reason I'm here. Although it is not yet apperent in my life right now, it will be.
Whenever Mike texts me (actually, whenever anyone texts me) I get a huge smile on my face. I shout "Mom! Mike just texted me! :D". Pathetic? Only a little. You can't blame a girl for loving her best friend, can you?
And I miss Matt.. Which is a given but.... Sometimes i don't know what on earth I'd do without him, even 700 miles away.
I miss Miranda, and her sweet smile and hello's in the hall. I miss doing the 'Time Warp' dance.
I miss Brendan, and his sillyness :) I miss how there was never a dull moment.
I miss everyone, really. Too many to say something about, but... lot's.. Sigh.
I love you all :) <3



p.s. it's absolutely freezing here. Isn't Cali supposed to be warm..?