Hey. you. boy. read this pretty please....

To:  if its to you, you'll know.

I kinda really sorta not really wish to be over you.
Especially cuz im sure your over me. I mean, if you were you over me you wouldnt tell me.
and you wouldnt tell me if you werent... i dunno.. :\ my crazy thoughts keep trying to tell me that maybe we have another chance somewhere, somehow.... (yes im listening to Ocean Avenue as i type this). but thats what my brain is telling me... well actually my brain is telling me that we are better off as good friends. my pretty sure its my heart telling me the other part. (or my liver. its hard to tell the two apart). usually my heart is wrong  and my brain is right so im not quiet sure how to react to what is going on in me. i just... i just want to know okay? cuz i feel like in a way your leaving me hanging. but if you decide to tell me then do it nice please...
i just kinda feel like we didnt have enough time to fall in love.(wow that sounds alot less cheesy in my head...) we didnt get our chance. and frankly, i still think you pretty wonderful. and ever since we became 'just friends' (i dont like saying broke up. it sounds harsh and mean, and thats not what it was.) it seems like i like you more. weird? yes. i just want you know know this. maybe im making it harder for you? i dunno. once again please tell me if i am. i get jealous easily, of the girls you talk to. i still wish we talked more at school. i wish i could carry on conversation with you. im not really sure as to where this little note or whatever its called is going. im just typing now cuz i want you to know, and im to big of a baby to tell you things in person. how lame am i?
pretty lame...
well i guess you now know some of my thoughts if you, ya know, ever read this...
you prolly wont cuz... well i dont know why, you just wont. anyways... im done now so... you can stop reading cuz i can tell this is gonna end awkward...
uhm... bye?
lots of love?
sincerely?
gtg ttyl?
ahhhhhh i got it.
forever friend,
            phee.
yah that was weird i really hope you didnt read that. hah.